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    I've changed recently. After years of biting my nails, I stopped, and I learned that everything scaring me wasn't real. 

    Bullshit jobs. I've heard the term before but listening to the book on the topic gave me a much deeper understanding. People are busy at their jobs all to keep unemployment high. 

    But it goes so much deeper within my life. Colleges, schools, jobs—all of these had elements of fake busy work. I thought it would end someday, but it looks like it will continue forever since I now have a degree. 
    
    Internships at companies. I saw this. Pointless tasks, upper management doing nothing all day. The jobs I've almost been hired for. One just wanted me to travel to a factory somewhere else in the world I believe the reason why is because no one else would do it. Another one was to do a work-study for a manager who didn't want to do it themselves. Seeing the show my mother gives to her company to seem busy and I know her coworkers do the same.
    
    I didn't think it was so many people doing this and it even happened during my time at college. 
    
    I was angry for two days. All day after reflecting on this. Yet, learning how much of my life was a performance I took seriously and it was mainly a waste of energy put on me for people's interest. I felt free. I understood the rules of this lie nearly everyone plays along with. I will continue to play along with this lie and I will do things differently. I feel so free because my desires are fair to earn now. I can play in the lie whenever I need to and I now have a lifetime to learn how to play outside it.